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(yes im sorry for admitting it so blatantly here. Actually.. not really)

I will submit to the flexibility and lack of advertisements of blogspot.com now

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So two exams down!!
Accounting and Microeconomics were tricky and one would wonder why they teach us the simplest things in lectures but give us the most confusing questions ever. Ok... it wasn't THAT bad. :P But seriously! I NEVER knew that economics could have so many long ass stories to confuse you and CHALLENGE you into extracting a concept from that half-a-page story... wow....

Ok... Since im done with ranting about the exam papers, I shall continue to rant about the fact that the venue and the sheer amount of people taking the exam is scary shit. SCARY!!

I would like to NOT touch on the situation during the first day of exams but I'm sorry, I must. First of all, we get there and realise there are also 3rd year accounting students who were taking exams in the SAME exact hall! Holy crap... how big is the hall??? It was HUGE! We had to sit on 2 separate sides of the building. Oh. Yes I forgot to mention that the building was called the Royal Exhibition Building.

Advice from seniors:
1. Try and arrive just in time 'cause you will get frustrated by the sheer fact that it's cold and there are another few thousand students crowding in around you trying to jam into 2 of the tiniest doors ever.

2. Wear multiple layers of clothing 'cause it will get so cold that you cannot even write properly.

The question really is.... How come they squeeze 2 accounting subjects worth of students into 2 doors when there a total of 8 doors in the whole entire building?!??! Truth is.. I don't know... I don't like the invigilators....They caused me to lose my favourite mechanical pencil!

See... I dropped it onto the floor and it was wayyyy in front of me... impossible for me to crawl under the table and reach that far off to get it... USUALLY, observant invigilators will notice that SOMETHING fell onto the floor and pick it up FOR you... So, why didn't they do it?! I totally forgot to pick it up after the exam. >.<

Ok... Im really just ranting 'cause im typing on Monvan's laptop now which is so nice to type on! :D It's a MAC with a keyoard protector... so it's quiet AND soft :P

Anyways... talking on the phone with Yuan Dong yesterday was such a relief 'cause now I know he's doing well and it just made me feel ssooo mcuh better just to talk to someone I have known for so long. Granted talking to parents are awesome but old friends is awesome too. THe sense of belonging and self confidence just all come back.

What I did today was think back to the conversation I had with him and returned to calmness again everytime I strated freaking out about microeconomics. So it was good that I called and I have to give credits to Christopher for suggesting to me to call if I really was that worried. hehehe! Yes... *doink* why didn't I think about that myself?! Actually, I did. Just that Im too used to getting approval from someone before carrying out anything on my own.

That's the diff between studying overseas and studying back home I suppose. Everything is on your head now. Every choice is your own. You freak out? Nobody has enough energy or time or commitment to calm YOU down. It's all on your head.

Floormates just said "I like it here 'cause ALL of us don't care about the drama... and end the nights on a high note"

Now, that's the way to live life. Life with almost no drama ... ~

Have you ever wondered what life would have been like if you made each and every choice without any opinions from anyone whatsoever?

What if I went to Sydney?

What if I chose Psychology?

What if I was never born!?

Cairns was beautiful...The Great Barrier Reef and amazing sites with great ppl...

Monvan, Audrey and Me in my Hawaiian(or very patriotic?) pants :P

Snorkelling at the Great Barrier Reef. Beautiful beautiful corals and fishies!

 

 

 

Pirates of the Caribbean 3 rocked my socks off!!

(I was jumping up and down like a lil girl before AND after the show >.<)

No, im not sorry that im being biased...Captain Jack Sparrow! *heart*

 

and... EXAMS ARE IN 3 DAYS!!!!!!!!!

 

Wow... Im surprised ppl actually take the time to drop by and chat around here (refer to chatbox). Just a shout out to those ppl that I really do appreciate your concern and it's nice to feel loved. *coughs at own perasanness*

So, anyways, the International House had a charity event in which I took part in one of the performances. We danced to "THRILLER". I thought that that was a total coicidence 'cause that's what I was thinking about peforming whilst back in M'sia and before I came over to Aus. So I guess someone read my mind?! HAHHA!

Exams are in 3 weeks. Well actually maybe less and I think Im not really ready for anything but I really can't be stuffed. Just counting on passing all my classes and I'd be happy.

I was reading an article in the Law Magazine and they mentioned something about us being so used to using technology to communicate that we find it too much effort to think of our tone, sentences, expression when talking to someone face to face. Like, we would prefer to just complain about bad services through the internet, post our deepest and darkest secrets online. Even mobile phones contribute to this, I do believe. How many r'ships can you name that have been developed through the power of technology? I'd reckon that I could think of a few...Even married couples who met online before they got into a r'ship.

Probably got to accept that they world is evolving and we don't only depend on face to face r'ships to develop trust and understanding but do you really find THAT to be true? Are we really going to be isolated freaks, sitting in front of our computers and beside our mobile phones creating r'ships without human contact or expressions?

What kind of emotionless monsters will we turn into? Is all this technology really worth it in the end? In terms of relationships and real emotions.

I guess one could argue that it does help us keep in contact with our loved ones back home when one is overseas. It helps us create globalised trading and efficiency (though, MAS is doing a lousy ass job at that.. bloody frustrating). It makes everything move along much faster but would it lead to the deterioration of human communications and emotion?

Will we ourselves turn into programmed, emotionless robots in the future?

Soo... We had Autumn Ball at college last week and it was fun. It was good...

I guess it's, in a way, a good welcome back party.. HAHAHHA!!

Anyways...

Cick for more pictures :D

Well, easter break is almost over. Who am I kidding? It's one day till it's officially over!

But easter was great. Easter was good.

My parents came all the way down from Malaysia to have a holiday here and visit my bro and I. Whee~! Aren't they sweetest? It was really nice to see them again eventhough it has only been about two months since I have seen them in person.

I got to stay at the Graduate House where my brother stays and it was such a switch from the International House where random loud noises are a norm. It was rather proper and mature(?) in the Graduate House but most of all it was peaceful. Yes, it was peaceful enough to do work but did I do any work? No la!!

So, I had a fantastic time going out with my parents and staying over at my God Aunt's place. It was really cool to go out to some of the suburbs around Melbourne and do some... SHOPPING! Whee-ness! (man... that's another collection into my dictionary of words ending with "ness")

Anyways, everyone's stressed up with all the assignments due and stuff but I guess we learn to deal with more more and things as we get older.

'Sides as I was having a conversation with Yvonne, we realised just how spoilt our generation is. When our parents went overseas, they had to work their butss off to pay for their fees or even their ticket back home. Now, look at how easy we have it? Even our researches are so much easier with internet access and not much need to go to the library and look through books one by one. We have it easy folks.

So what exactly are we stressing about?

Maybe the other people who seemed to have become increasingly intelligent? I don't know. Maybe they jsut don't really have to deal with other things and can just sit down and read what they want to read and do what they wanna do which kinda gives them an advantage our parents never had during their studying years?

What exactly are we so worked up about?

Anson kor kor, Daddy, Mummy and I (Aww...why Adrian kor kor didn't come along? He said he become "shop keeper" for Daddy already.. hehehe!!!)

It's odd how I have such a huge support system here, being in a college and all....

yet...

With a larger support group...

The less willing am I to really let anyone in..

I fear the feelings of hurt..I fear the feelings of dependancy

And, I miss the people back home...

 

 

I may be bias.

Maybe seniors and freshers are afraid of each other. Not afraid afraid but I guess when you have found your comfort zone and are somehow forced again to make friends with new faces, it can be kinda daunting, can be kinda tiring, can be kinda cumbersome.

Are freshers scary? Yes, even to me they sometimes are. Who am I to say anyways? The fear of new people has been inborn in me since the beginning. But do you realise that they freshers are scared too? They are afraid of being left out, of being claimed too new to do or realise anything. They are constantly out there to proof that they are able to do it. Is that what makes them scary?

I'm droning on. I can't express what I really want to say without offending anyone or without anyone disagreeing with me. So, I think I will stop here.

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*yes, I continue to run*

On another note, the end of the month is coming soon and the first month of uni will be done. Whoppee!? Not so much. Apparently, the workload will start piling up after the easter break. Nothing ever comes easily I guess.

This is what I believe. You just can't look down on any course, saying that it's easy. It really comes down to what you really wanna do. Everyone has their strengths and weaknesses and nothing ever comes easily. There's no biasness when it comes to education, I THINK. Even if you were to stop schooling and go to work. That doesn't make life easy.

Even if you strike it lucky and make a billion dollars (thinking of the fella who spilled glue on notes and invented 'posted notes'), is your life really that much easier? Every level of society has their difficulties. Just like how every field of education has its own workload. It may be lighter it may be heavier but where one is lacking, something else will always take the place of that load of burden.

I do realise im rambling on at a random speed but I'm in the law library AGAIN and it's just like typing on these comps. WHEEE~! Sue the ass off me.

The question for today is : How much strength do you have to keep going?

 

Looking forward has become a habit,

It's how we blink our eyes,

It's like how we always say goodbye.

Take a breath...

Take a step back...

Turn around slowly,

Let the images show...

Let things pass by in fleeting motions,

Catch the time that was once lost.

Turn around slowly,

Hold your breath,

Into the sea...

Turn around slowly,

You'll see...

Images blur,

but with you... I have me....